She may be living every girl's dream she's still dreaming of something else herself - such as having a baby. Tyra Banks reveals to Essence magazine that her dreams of being a mother have been shoved aside when her career started to roll.

"After the talk show started, and I had Top Model at the same time, it engulfed me so much that it dulled my maternal instinct," the 34-year-old retired supermodel says.

The host of her self-titled talk show host and America's Next Top Model says that she has not yet completely abandoned the thought of raising her own family. "I hope that when I get more of a handle on my life it comes back."

And although she says she couldn't complain of her life, she still feels certain longing. "I'd go to work and women would be crying in my arms on the talk show. But then I'd go home and put my key in my door and... nothing, no friends, no husband, no children. I feel so full when I'm at work but so empty when I come home."

Banks is the first African-American woman to grace the covers of Sports Illustrated magazine swimsuit issue. She's also one of only four African-Americans to have repeatedly rank Time magazine's list of the world's most influential people. She's currently developing shows for Warner Bros. and with Ashton Kutcher.