Paula Abdul is disappointed in herself. The 'American Idol' host is so disappointed with the outcome of her new music video 'Dance Like There's No Tomorrow' she tries to pretend it didn't happen at all.

MSNBC.com reports that a source close to the 45-year-old singer says she wanted to say her music video is horrible but she doesn't want to hurt fellow AI judge Randy Jackson's feelings.

"She doesn't think it's Heidi Montag-bad, but she's still trying to pretend like it didn't happen. If Randy wasn't involved, she'd be more vocal about it, but she does appreciate the fact that he was involved," the source says.

The music video, which is part of Jackson's 'Randy Jackson's Music Club, Vol. 1' album, is supposed to be Abdul's comeback launch. Her last album had been released more than one decade ago.